Two weeks ago I did what all 40 year old women are supposed to do. Went and got a Mammogram. Yeah for me. Not much fun, but not as bad as I had heard. I was told I would get a letter in a couple of weeks. No big deal. I was done, I wouldn't need to worry about that for another year. Well, last week I got the letter. Opened it up expecting "Your results were negative, go on with life". No, not me. I can never seem to do anything normal. Instead I get the letter that says "Your examination shows findings that require additional studies for evaluation". First reaction was panic. Why me? Why do I have to have one more thing wrong? After talking it through with a good friend and a wonderful sister I felt better. I found out that this happens frequently, why can't they warn you of that??, so it's probably not anything at all. Of course being the worrier that I am, that doesn't make it any easier. I go in for a sonagram next Friday. I was able to get busy and put it in the back of my mind, but then today I get a phone call from my doctor making sure that I had the Sonagram scheduled. Back in my mind front and center. So, it's time to get busy again and put it back into the corners of my mind.
My therapy for things that stress me is organizing things. That way I feel in control of something in my life. You would think that as often as I feel out of control of things in my life everything in my home would be organized. But as crazy as my life is things seem to get unorganized quickly. So, there is always some sort of project to do. Seems like after a year in this house I'm still organizing cupboards that were just loaded when we moved in anyway. So, on I go to finish a cupboard and add a little bit of organization and control into my life.
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I can totally understand what you going through. A couple years ago my girlfriend at the time suggested that I go into this free breast exam tent at a festival we were at. To humor her, I did. I was shocked when the woman doing the exams thought that I see a doctor to get better evaluated. I didn't even have a doctor, but my girlfriend found me one and set up an appointment. (She wouldn't let it be dropped..) Then my doctor poked around and suggested that I go over and have a mammogram and sonogram to get a couple things double/triple checked. After that, I had to go to a breat cancer doctor to get one more poke around.. The couple weeks that passed before I was given the all-clear were pretty stressful. It's not something I'm looking forward to ever going through again..
Hope everything turns out ok for you.. Sending you a big hug and much love..
A very long time ago, I found a lump in my arm - scared me to death so went to a doctor to get it checked out. He decided it would be best to cut it out and send it off for a biopsy - turned out to be calcified fat so all was well. But it was scary time waiting for the results. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers - hang in there. Grandma and I will be over to see you sometime in March while I'm down.
We would love to see you. What part of March will you be here?
When I am stressed I also like to oraganize. Moslty papers and go through boxes. Nothing ever seems to get clean but I feel better.
I am an organizer, too. I totally hear you on it never being fully organized, though.
I worry about mams sometimes. How scary it must be, but I am sure it will all be fine. No matter what though- you have your family, all of us who love you and will take care of you!
Prayers and love from Michigan are raining down on you (warm not freezing rain...brrrrrr). We would love to come over and make you some yummy green chili stew and stay up talking the night away as we dipped toasty rolls in the broth and helped take your mind off the worries. If only we were closer.
with love,
su hermano
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