Emotional Baggage!?!?

Okay, so it's another day, thank goodness. Yesterday was a whopper. As you know four of my children come with emotional baggage. They have some that has been opened and worked through, some that has been opened, but we are still trying to work through, and some that gets opened as we go along. YUCK!! Somedays I think that there is no way I can deal with one more thing, and that I would love to have just one day without something occuring. Well, yesterday was a big one. My little 7 year old's behavior has been spiralling and finally came to a head yesterday with some behavior that was definatly a cry for help. So, her and I spent the morning in the rocking chair while everyone else went to school. It wasn't a nice little rock either, it was a fight until I could get her past the mad part into the sad part where she was ready to talk. So, we yelled and fought, then cried and talked. She had questions and concerns about her past that we were able to talk about. I knew for awhile now that she was starting to question and was getting mature enough to understand the answers to the questions. So, we talked about what happened and why, she wrote in a notebook and we read a story about adoption. Needless to say it exhausted me emotionally and I still feel run out today. I ache for my children and the problems that they have to carry around with them. Her little body is so full of anger that she doesn't even understand. We were able to open a gate and take a few steps, but it's still going to be a long hard climb up the hill before she is whole. Daily I pray for the strength and the inspiration to make it through another day. Hug your little ones and know what a great blessing it is to be able to love them from the time that they are born.