Strong Families?!?

There is a movement going on in our area to "fix" the schools. There are some problems in the school system that need to change, and everyone is concerned about our youth and the trouble they are getting into because of the things going on at the school. A group has cropped up that are trying to strengthen the family, they are holding meetings and discussing and learning how to strengthen the family, what they can do to support each other and stuff like that. Some of my friends and ladies I work with in Church callings are involved. I couldn't figure out why I felt upset every time they started to talk about it, and why I had such an aversion to going to their meetings. Well, yesterday I figured it out. I think it's a good idea, I know families need to be stronger, and that there are things we all can do better, but I feel so self conscious, and maybe even a little jealous. Yes, I'll admit it, jealous of their "perfect" families. I know that they aren't perfect, that they have their problems, too. Most of them are young families with children only in elementary school, and will have the teenager thing to deal with soon enough. But I'll admit I'm jealous, which is really stupid. I love my family, and wouldn't trade my children for anything. They are my children no matter how they came to me, they are mine. But sometimes I would trade the problems that we seem to have every day. Every day it is something new to deal with, but yet also something new to learn, and more love to feel. What a crazy mixed up emotion this is. It would just be nice to not have to know the principal of the school on a first name basis because of the phone calls I receive from him, to not have to worry about if my kids are going to get into trouble when they aren't at home, whether they are strong enough to make good choices when I'm not around. I would love to help fight the battle of the school, yet I am exhausted just trying to get through our daily battles with reading comprehension, and math; trying to teach my children basic values and hoping they sink in. I don't have the time or energy for the other battles. So, I feel self conscious that they think I don't care about it all, that I don't care what happens to my children at school. I worry about my children at school all the time, especially with Middle School coming next year, but I don't have the time to sit around and talk about it. I have more important things to do, family relationships to create, and children to teach. So, I'll do my part to do what I can for my family and that's all that I need to do or worry about. That is my job and it's the most important thing I can be doing with my life right now.