All worth it!!

Things have been really crazy around here.  My emotions have been a roller coaster whirlwind.  I feel very overwhelmed with being the mother of a toddler again; I mean honestly it's been 14 years since we have had a little one in our home.  I am definitely not as young as I used to be, and he wears me out chasing him around.  I feel lost trying to balance everyones needs and still have time for myself.  It is hard having people think we are crazy for doing this.  How could we not do it, I know that he needs to be here in our family, and I could not live my life knowing that I didn't do all things possible to provide a safe and loving home for him.  I worry about how long it's going to take and how much of a fight it's going to be to have him permanently in our home.  I stress about all of the visits we have to have from different people and the emotions that it brings out in my other kids.  I stress about the court hearings and CFT meetings I will have to attend and who all will be at them.  And then he comes running to me with his little arms held up and my heart melts.  I see him running to play with the girls in their room, or wrestling with one of the boys, or toddling off to Jason's room to play and it's all worth it.  I see everyone laughing because of his antics, like walking around the living room with a plastic bucket on his head.  And I watch as he carries on complete conversations with LaMont - not being able to understand a thing he is saying, but he sure has a lot to say and I know that no matter how hard it is he has already blessed our family and has already worked his magic and made his way into our hearts.