Change

I have realized that I don't like change.  I enjoy new beginnings and trying something different as long as I am in control of it.  But I really don't like change when I am thrust into it.  I enjoy my routine.  I like my lists of things to get done, and I get really cranky when I feel like I am not accomplishing anything.  I like to feel in control, and when I don't I clean.  Problem is I don't feel in control of my life right now, and I can't clean because I have a little tornado that comes right behind me and makes a mess.  I've got to find a different outlet, a different way to feel in control of my life.  Being the parent of a soon to be University student, High School students, pre-teens and a toddler all at the same time is a lot more emotionally draining than I thought.  I wouldn't change for the world, but the continual changes of it all are draining me.  I've just got to find a way to fill myself back up.